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Amanda Irene Rush's avatar

Beautiful. ❤️

I love so much about this piece. I love the way you honor Avah, yourself, and grief itself. I love the reminder that avoidance is not protection or control. That healing comes from being honest about the pain.

Your writing is beautiful too. (I especially like the way you show the different parts of yourself on the page.)

Thank you for this wonderful read. 😊

Stephanie Monds's avatar

Thanks, Amanda. It’s been sitting in my drafts for a while. So are several others I’m trying to muster up the courage to publish. It’s so helpful to get feedback - good or bad. There’s a lesson for me in each one and I sincerely appreciate yours 🫶🏾🫶🏾

Jennifer Tyminski's avatar

My God Stephanie, I am crying before coffee. The tapestry you weave has me woven into it now, entangled in your pain and really feeling your words. You have such a way of translating your grief onto page that brings the reader along as if they'd called "shotgun" and are now riding with you.

We all just hope for the happy "ending" right, in every memoir that details any suffering, I try to endure it, rushing to read fast hoping for the happy resolve. I need to know the author is "ok" because then I will be ok too, right? But, grief doesn't really work that way does it? Are we ok today, ok? then good. Let's check in on it again tomorrow.

I love seeing you treat You with a little tenderness and allowing the LED to finally 'A'light for you. Your alter is a bright and happy celebration of your beautiful girl, and for her Mama and Papa that continue to light her path and nurture the beautiful rainbow babies at home.

Lot's of arms wrapping around you now and forever Steph.

Kari O'Driscoll's avatar

Healing is a process, not a place. We don't 'own' it, we experience it. We don't control it, we participate in it, when and how we can. Giving yourself the space to engage with it when it feels manageable and pull back when it doesn't is a form of self-care, my friend. You do you. And know that you're not alone. Thank you for sharing so others can witness. Love you so much.

Melissa DiMemmo's avatar

This is heartbreakingly beautiful. In the way you share Avah, your pain and vulnerability, and in the writing. Thank you for sharing 🫂💜

Roop Sandhu's avatar

I love you, Stephanie ♡︎ thank you for sharing your whole heart with us

Stephanie Monds's avatar

Thank you, Roop♥️

Karen Cadiero-Kaplan's avatar

🙏🏼🙏🏼❤️❤️

Faith Scott's avatar

This is heart wrenching and beautiful. I adore you.